A New Me

Last time I posted I was writing about my 30 day yell less challenge I started off doing great then I just stopped. So to say the least I will be doing that again shortly. I did become aware of certain things that cause
it but now I just need to work on better execution of not yelling. I’m working on it. Man not yelling does not feel natural to me Lol.

I have kept up with my running…Yay me! I have to say running has becoming such a great stress relief to me. I am not the best runner in the world but every day I go out there and get some miles done I feel so proud of myself. I am not giving up or just saying maybe next time, I am going out there and getting it done. I think one of the biggest motivators for me has to be the running group I am a part of Latinas in Motion this group of girls are so motivating and they are so encouraging that it makes you want to keep going. I have been posting pics of my runs on instagram as a visual reminder to me that anything is possible. I’m sure some of my instagram friends may unfollow me lol but I don’t care these post are about me and how I am changing my habits to become a better me. I need things like this to remind me that anything is possible and that someone like me who never had to work out a day in her life is now making an effort to get fit. Losing weight has been such a challenge for me because I never had to worry about it until now and it is a constant struggle. The struggle is to not look at myself and hate what I look like and compare myself to other girls who are thinner than me. I will be happy with what I look like not because I lose weight but because I know I am doing what it takes to be healthy and that is what ultimately matters.  One of my close friends has been posting pics of her eating healthier and it is so inspiring to me and I love seeing it because it helps me to see what I can still work on to better myself. (Side note: So very proud of her!!!) Being overweight for me has been difficult because I don’t feel comfortable in my skin and I need to feel comfortable again whether I am 200 pounds or 120 pounds but I need to remember it isn’t the size that matters but how I carry myself. Right now I carry myself like a tired old lady who has 50 kids and I really only have 2. LOL I am a hot mess.  So this momma is getting fit because I need to be a better mom, wife, sister, daughter and friend to my loved ones. So I’m going to THINK IT! SAY IT! DO IT!

Since my last post my car broke down and being that is my only form of transportation to work it was a very difficult time. But God provided a way for us and I had a great co-worker who took me to work and home and we had some other friends help figure out what was wrong with the car. My hubby who knows nothing about cars was able to fix the problem. Praise God. So what seemed like a hopeless situation was filled with hope!!

Things have been tough in other areas but God is faithful and he is definitely teaching me lessons in my faith walk with him. Living far away from my friends and family is difficult but God is holding us in his hand. I am not sure what He wants us to do but what I do know is He wants us here for now. I am trusting Him and letting Him lead me. There are days I wish I could be with my friends in FL helping in the youth ministry but I remember that God asked us here for a reason and there is a purpose. It is hard seeing your friends do some amazing things and you aren’t there to celebrate first hand. But I hope they know I am celebrating every day with them and I am there even if only thru their post or pics. I am praying for all of them and I am placing them before our Father asking His will be done in their lives!!  

I am starting to go back to Lamb’s Church and I absolutely love it. Our pastors are amazing and they really make you feel loved and boy do I need that right now. I hope as I continue to really emerge myself in this church that I will begin to see some of the purpose that God had for us coming to New York.

Until next time…. Sending my love from the concrete jungle!